LUNCHBOX

Why is it that the people you care for the most, hurt you the most in the end?
I'm so heated right now...like I'm tired of the lies & deceit & just EVERYTHING!
I really felt as though you cared, but as time presses on, I see that I was just another thing to occupy a few good moments in your time.
So badly I wanted to savor whatever friendship that was left through all our recent drama...but as of now, not even the smallest inkling of blood rushing through my veins wants to press forward in entertaining your presence.
I really don't know why I'm even going through this right now, but I'm done. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Friends don't leave friends behind...but then that just goes to show...we weren't ever really friends were we?
I don't like you BOY!! OMGWSH!! Maybe you never had a close friend that really cared about you...but maybe you can't handle it.

A young wise man told me you were a lunchbox...maybe he was right. Useless just like a lunchbox sitting on top the refrigerator, dirty, empty, & a little smelly.

Message to Av...

heartbreak is one of those pains that doesn't diappear overnight and it can't be washed away with your other sorrows with a hot shower...it stays deeply embedded within your soul...and even when you're happy again...it's still maifesting within.
So, Av, my heart is with you on this one.
i'm taking a break from all this cause i know in the end these relationships ARE worth pursuing, but in my current state of mind...i may eff all of it up, ya know?
and that's the LAST thing that needs 2 happen...(:

Spring Break

Yes!!! Spring Break is finally here...
This year I'm not going 2 the beach...but I still plan on having fun.
unlike 79.9746% of my friends...I'm going 2 enjoy myself in w/e i do. The drama stops now. It's vacation time & i shouldn't have 2 take a vaca from my vaca.
It's time to relax and have fun for a change...cause school hinders progress in that area as we all know.
If there's people you have drama with or w/e then leave it alone...cause i assure you, things will be the same when school is back in session.
Take time out to chill with people who you have fun with and you won't regret being in their presence.
As far as schoolmax goes...i already called the school numerous times and guess what?!?!---NOBDY'S THERE!!!, so everyone with effd up grades can relax cause there's nothing that can be done at this point...Just know: As soon as I step foot into CHFLowers HS in 2 wees...MY GRADES WILL BE FIXED!
As for now, i couldn't care less, cause it's time for me to enjoy myself for one...with people who i care about.

A break is to to free oneself or escape suddenly, as from restraint or dependency..So take a night off for yourself (: You deserve it! :p

Well...

I was told that all love is true love...there's just different levels or love and different stages.
According to dictionary.com
Love is a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend...
Why does love have to equate to attachment? Why does it have to be so powerful?...Why do these 4 Letters L-O-V-E put together have to be responsible for such tragedies...
and if all love is true, then that means when it's spoken you have to be being honest...or else you're lying...but THUS proving the first statement false...OI!!! MERE CONFUSION....

"Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love. ~Albert Einstein"

Note to a BestFriend...

CURIOSITY and APPREHENSION started us out...
stories you told & fantasies you had
MY curiosity...obsession with the unreal
then troubles lurked all around us...school & home issues--the never ending doom
the advice--I'd like 2 say it was a two way street
phone calls late at night, my feeble cries in the dark...your soothing notions were always the solution to my troubles
back then i knew someone cared...YOU Cared, or so i thought.
after a mere recollection of things at the beginning not being close to the present, things changed.
the advice stopped and the opinions started.
instead of wiping the tears away, you put them on my face...like throughout it all i was always me. the negative things in my character...they were always there.
Now you, you're the one who changed. you may not see it, but your change has come.
maybe i missed the part where u forgot about r friendship and decided to leave me out to dry...
you told me to take sometime and look into my eyes and tell you what i see..i see me as I've always been...just newly uncovered and once again...ALONE.